Ten Random Facts About Me

So even though I was late to the Top Ten Tuesday of Ten random facts about myself, I still felt the need to do this post separately from Top Ten Tuesday. 

What better way to get to know someone better than to know some weird\random facts about them?
I thought, you know, it would be a fun (if slightly embarrassing) way for you to know the girl behind the posts. 

So here I go. 

Fact #1: I love watching anime

Yep, I'm a big anime fan.
This is no secret. I actually have another, much less known blog called Light & Dark where I talk all about anime, TV shows and movies (so for some more information, you can check it out in the link).
But I've been so super busy with Magiverse lately that I haven't blogged there since... May, I think. Not to worry though, I'll be back there soon. 

So anyway, anime. Yes, I've been watching anime since I was 12 and never stopped since.
Those of you who, like me, love anime: *high five*. 

Fact #2: I love languages

I have a thing for languages.
English is not, in fact, my native language. But I always loved it and actually prefer it to my native language (how weird is that?).
So I know English + my native language + a little bit of Japanese (though I would love to know much more), and after that... I would absolutely love to know Italian and\or Spanish.

Like I said, I love languages (: 

Fact #3: I bake

If you told me a year ago I would love to bake, I would have been amused.
I honestly didn't know I had it in me. It literally seemed to come out of nowhere.
And ever since then... I love baking.
It's fun, it's relaxing and I love every second of it.
Any suggestions for recipes I should try? 

Fact #4 (Which is a rather dark one): I have anxiety disorder

Which is... this. 

Sorry for the darker mood of this fact, everyone, but considering this fact is a very much part of my everyday life\struggles, I felt it was important to share.
Whether I like it or not (really-really not), it's a part of who I am. 

Fact #5: I have this weird habit of listening to music while running in my house 

Which causes quite a lot of injuries, to be honest. Though I would like to believe I'm getting better at preventing them, since I've been doing it since I was 13.
Key words: would like to believe. 

You read that right, by the way: I listen to music and run in my house.
Usually, people go for runs outside.
But no, I do it inside.
Why?
Because:

Fact #6 (which is another dark one): I also have social anxiety disorder 

It should be against some kind of nature law to have more than one mental issue\disorder. 

Honestly, is it not enough to have Panic disorder, Generalized anxiety disorder and all sorts of phobias? No, let's add SAD to the mix.

I was very self conscious to share those things about myself. Getting to terms with yourself of having a mental disorder is easy enough. Telling about it to everyone else? Not so much.
But then I took a big breath and told myself that I need to - that I have to - do this. Because it's important to share this kind of thing.
And because that all of you are such a wonderful bunch of people, that suddenly I am not so afraid to tell you this (:

If you've wondered why I don't have a real - human - profile photo, that is why. I'm hoping to have the courage to upload one someday.  

To describe, in some way, what anxiety and social anxiety disorders feel like, I wrote a short story about it, that I hope turned out alright:

As I'm walking through the crowd, I can feel my body starting to react; my heart is in my throat, my skin is crawling, my mouth is dry, my head is spinning and all I can think about it running, running, running away.
But I can't. I'm frozen to my place, terrified that one wrong move will draw attention.
My eyes are darting from here to there, looking for threats.
There are people all around me; laughing, talking, looking.
Rationally, I know my reaction doesn't make any sense. Rationally, I know there aren't any real threats around. Rationally, I know it's my anxiety acting up. Rationally, I know I need to calm down.
But I also know that rationality and logic are useless against it. They do their best, but they never win.
I put my hands in my pockets. With my shoulders bent and my head low, I walk away.
I don't look back. 

Fact #7: I'm a hardcore shipper

Can't help myself.
When I read a book, watch a movie, a TV shows and yes, even anime, I automatically ship.
You, hardcore shippers out there... you know the feeling, don't you? 

Fact #8: I always buy a pink watch

It's like a tradition of mine.
Whenever my watch breaks, I buy a new - pink - one.
I'm pretty sure it's from the time I was little and loved pink. And since then it sort of became tradition to buy a pink watch.
*shaking my head*
Go figure. 

Fact #9: I avoid tragic books like the plague

Like... the protagonist dies. Or the love interest of the protagonist dies. Or maybe just a horrible non-ending (and I don't mean an open ending).
Nope, I just can't deal with tragic endings.
Speaking from experience, they tear me to pieces.

When I read a book, I connect to it emotionally. There is no going back from that moment. When the main character dies at the end... no, just no. Death doesn't make the story more interesting or more dramatic or unique. You can just as equally fear for the characters lives without them also dying at the end. 

So yes, I'm the HEA or HE (happy ending) kind of girl.
Tragic books? No thank you. I don't read them. At least, not purposley, because lately... authors are tending to go crazy with ending books in the kind of tragedy I avoid at all costs. It's getting harder to tell which authors are apable of it and which won't dare do it.

Fact #10: I love Biology

I really do. It's something I've been meaning to keep studying after finishing high school.
I always had a knack for biology. I can't explain it. It's just so facinating, so full of possibilities.
I love research and discovering new things.
Biology is one of the toughest subjects I ever came across, but it's also one of my favorites.
Kind of like blogging. It's a lot of hard work, but so worth it. Beyond words, it's worth it.

And now, before we wrap this post up, I have just two very short bonus facts for you:

Fact #11: I love the Winter 

Which doesn't work very well when you live in a place where the summers are brutal and the Winters are hardly present.

Fact #12: I have a tendency to overuse smilies

I honestly need to refrain myself from using them in posts\reviews. It's hard (: 

And there you have it - 12 fact about me.

I hope it was fun (hopefully not too depressing\boring).
While I was very nervous to share this much about myself,
I actually found the words fllowing efortleslly as I wrote this post.

Which is a good sign.
Thank you so much for staying till the end of this longer than expected post! I really appreciate it.

I'd love to hear your thoughts!
Until then...

Shawn Mendes - Something Big

"You can't live your life in fear for the next bad thing, or you won't have a life to live."